Dear self,

Dear self,

You have reached that point in your life wherein you got so tired, so hurt, you became scared to try again. You have let the moments pass you thinking that the right time for everything will come and by then, you will be ready.

Right now, maybe you aren’t. That’s okay. I know you’re scared to try again. You’re scared to take another risk. But you have grown stronger and wiser. You were able to leave places and people who could have been your home. You decided against staying out of convenience because you knew the bigger picture– the complex ruins that would have been if you didn’t think your decisions through.

It’s okay to be sad about ending things you badly want because at the end of the day, what you want isn’t always best for you. It doesn’t seem always like a good idea but hopefully, the time will come and you would understand why it all had to happen. There are greater things in life than your now.

It’s okay to warm again to new people. It’s okay to play safe. It’s okay as long as you know that what you’re depriving yourself today will result to delayed gratification in the future. Just keep in mind that you will be okay. Everything will be. You’ve been through the toughest shit storm and you’ve made it alive. You will always make it alive as long as you keep going. Despite this, learn that it is okay to pause. It is okay to turn your back. But do so with a hundred percent conviction.

One day, you will find what you’ve always prayed for. Blessings will come at the right time– and keep in mind that the right time usually happens after you have learned your lesson. So learn first. Your struggles will pay off.

Lastly, here’s a reminder to not rush love. Do not rush anything for that matter. It’s a process that you have to go through and nothing worth having comes easy. He will enter your life at the right time. Everything will finally fall into place.

And it will all be worth it.