A friend who shares a name had this idea in her blog: if you want to stop doing something, over-saturate your self with it. In her case, she wanted to quit eating cakes so she forced herself to eat 7 cupcakes. Now, even just the thought of cakes gives her shivers.
That’s probably what I’m trying to do. You said I’m not happy with the decision I presented you. I’m saturating myself with things you want, that maybe someday, I’d reach that point when I would no longer care about what you actually do.